Independence Day was a lot harder on me than I expected it to be. I am still recovering from the absence of my son in the physical realm and how nice it would have been to come together as a family and celebrate.
I did take my Yorkie for a wee swim. She loves to swim and I felt that Jeremy coaxed me to take her; of course I enjoyed it too. I did hot dogs in honor of Jeremy and the swim because he wanted me to take a dip. It did help my mood considerably.
Yesterday, however; I couldn’t help but to think over and over that what I seem to have left in life right now is memories. My entire family lives somewhere else and it seems I have been saying bye to everyone for years and the finality of the physical realm of saying goodbye to my son drives this home even harder.
Well, as a family we did not get the opportunity to say bye to Jeremy. There was really no closure. I don’t relish the idea him being marked as the first man to be killed by a drone – but that is the legacy that is left the family. I asked the Houston Chronicle to please do an article about Jeremy the man, Jeremy the Marine and they did so – it was a beautiful article.
I am looking out the window as I share with you. What I have done today to nourish my soul and broken heart is to find life in everything I look upon; trees, birds, squirrels, flowers. This helps me to focus on life and in focusing on life it helps me to remember that Jeremy is alive. When I focus on his transition it keeps me in the now, the present and pivots me to the spiritual realm where the light is; this light never goes out. The spirit realm is full of light, love and vibrational energy of life.
I will try to remain in this vibration today and keep myself aligned with the Light Source for it is where the healing is as well.
I am reminded also today that our real time on planet Earth is not the same in the nonphysical realm; I must learn to be patient and concentrate not just on finishing my journey, but doing so with a heart and soul aligned with Spirit.
In love and understanding,