It’s close to fifteen
months since my son’s departure to the spirit realm and off to his new
adventures. I have mentioned that I have
done research into others experiences, thoughts and belief systems and I must
say that it comes full circle to that our children absolutely do live on and
are always with us; always looking over us.
This is something I knew down deep in my soul but still when it is your
child, your only son; I have had to have confirmation and confirmation again.
I will also say that
within this window of time with Jeremy being gone for me to be able to read and
do some research is a marked improvement in and of itself. I am an avid reader and for one year could
not read anything or absorb a sentence.
I still have trouble with things of legal nature, etc. my mind still
seems to fragment and gets overloaded easily, but I have improved.
I do feel my son’s
presence most of the time and although I miss him no less in the physical
realm; I am so appreciative of his presence.
The connection is so strong and sometimes I feel I can reach out and
touch him; other times it is more subtle yet I know he is with me.
I do believe that
Jeremy and I had some unfinished business so to speak; however, as I talk to
him through the day I feel his love for me strongly. He knows and understands more about me now and
as we know there is no such thing as a perfect parent. I certainly have made my share of mistakes
and wrong choices but being a good mom was the most important thing to me in
spite of those wrong turns. Jeremy was
extremely mature in the military world but because that is where he grew into a
man from high school there were things he learned to acclimate to in the
civilian realm. So we have put those
small matters behind us and I am looking forward to any nugget or morsel that
can be given me to share with anyone that will listen because I believe part of
what they do in helping us is guiding us spiritually along the way and to help
us grow and mature spiritually. I truly
believe that our children are helping to pave the road to heaven for us and
with us.
I love and miss my
son so much and wish I could laugh with him and hug him in the physical realm,
however; I will not complain because in some ways I have him much more often in
my life and the bond is stronger than it ever was and we were extremely close
here and loved each other and our family fiercely.
I feel that
ninety-eight percent of what I have shared on my blog has been a spiritual
avenue via the Spirit and my son to help us all in the hardest task to endure
that we will ever encounter. I pray that
something has helped you as it has it has helped me…….
In love and
understanding,
Sandra xx
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