April 12, 2012 Memoirs with Jeremy
Today is actually Friday the 13th and I
wanted to share with you briefly how this memoir was written.
I was tired and it was getting a little late; yet
I felt compelled to share with those of you that I hope to reach and bring love
and comfort to. I remember typing in the
date; I awoke some time later and what is the memoir below was written by me while
I was asleep. I am a novice regarding
things that are truly supernatural….. I have all my life been “sensitive” to
knowing what other people were truly thinking, having “real” dreams and some
prophetic words on occasion for others.
But this has been sporadic gifts that God chose to use me for throughout
my lifetime. Although I always write
from my heart which I believe is a form of writing via the Spirit. I have never been asleep and awake to
something I totally wrote/typed – my head was literally hanging down with chin
on my chest and I found this completed truly do not remember sharing any of the
memoir that follows: (I did add the
picture today)
I have felt Jeremy’s presence still; it’s as
though his spirits grazes mine just so subtly.
I am remembering upon awakening in the mornings that I am meeting him in
my dreams. As I open my eyes I know that
we have met on another dimension; however, I can’t remember the details, but it
is as though we depart one from the other, I remember his presence and he has
the look of his physical form when we meet in our “dreams” in this other
dimension.
I have seen Jeremy’s energy; it was golden and the
vibration was so high, so fast it was though it was still. I have caught glimpses of him moving through
the house; I have seen foggy glimpses and again on several occasions I have
seen him as though he was still in his earth plane body; there are times I have
seen several different spirit realm forms that he was in.
I don’t know how to explain that and want even
attempt to do so. I do hear him on a
daily basis, kind of checking in on me and I sense his presence so very
often. I have mentioned though when I
have the dark veil of intense grief covering me; he can’t reach through the
“darkness”; perhaps because is it much lower energy and vibration. I feel him much more often and clearer when I
meditate and keep connected to the portal of my soul level connecting to the
Spirit and we being connecting as one.
Sometimes feeling his spirit is the breeze blowing
across my face and there is a strong sense of Jeremy’s profound energy and you
just know it is him. On my more
spiritual days, meaning more connected; it is though his presence is at home
and he just goes through the day with me.
I have had a “lighter” spirit the last few days
and I always go back to the fact when I am on my more high energy days it is as
though I can reach through the veil and he is right there.
It is important to say that there is a daily routine
that is part of my living and breathing; not always in the same order or way
but a spirit of thanksgiving, a heart full of gratitude, keeping my thoughts on
kindness and compassion, love from my soul level and the respect and acceptance
of other’s journey regardless if I understand them or not. To have your portals open to the
“supernatural” your heart has to be pure of sincere love, forgiveness,
acceptance and thankfulness for all that God still does for me, my loved ones
and friends daily. I feel everyone has
their own unique way through their spirit to connect to the Universal Mind of
God and there is not a formula or mantra; it is simply the purity of your
heart.
I don’t blame God for Jeremy transition so early,
I believe they had an agreement somehow and his men have all said that if he
had not trained them and been there with them that not one of them would have
returned home. So I say that to say that
there is a reason and even though I am his earthly mom; it is between Jeremy
and his Heavenly Father. I believe I
made a pact too; I can’t imagine how we could possibly get life right and
ascend to the heavens ready to receive our “wings” going through just one
lifetime; I just know at my age I am just beginning to understand our presence on earth.
I am just now feeling I am getting a small glimpse
of what life is truly about and I reflect back during the early days and see so
much time was wasted on mundane things, however; I know that too is part of the
learning process.
There is no way that I could have survived this
past year without the Loving Spirit of God, the Universal Mind and Love of God
and Jeremy being granted to be with me, supporting me and his wonderful
visits. The toll of your child going
before you is so painful and harsh that it is a sheer miracle you survive one
day or night; it is truly a miracle that you make it through to the next
day. Yet again I say that is why we are
called survivors.
I have literally been given choices by God three
times regarding bearing this cross or opting to pass. I choose to stay and keep
my feet earthly planted for my daughter and her family and also for
Jeremy. I am a Marine Mom and I want to
make both my children proud and not just do this, but do it right.
There has been many been things to overcome
besides the sheer fact of losing my very special son. But I want to reiterate that forgiveness,
love and acceptance are layers you go through and release and get in the realm
of love and acceptance headed straight to your core at your soul level and you
will find the Energy, Source, God, Holy Spirit, Universal Mind and Love of God;
the connection is immediate and you feel as though you are soaring; it is a
most beautiful and peaceful place to be; it is very healing.
There is not one way to connect, there is no
formula, there is not a special mantra that is spoken. It is, again, purity of your heart, shutting
down your mind and thoughts forgive and open your spirit to love, forgiving,
and total acceptance of each other and being kind to each other regardless of
where we are one to the other.
I love my son more each day; he has certainly
pivoted me to a deeper understanding spiritually and I know I will remain there
searching for more, I choose this for I find peace, healing and a loving
realm where my spirit connects with the love and mind of The Universal God. I believe we are all connected as one and I
believe because of that connection that is why I have been reached by Jeremy;
simply because I truly believe in the connection and have faith in being one
with the Universal Mind and Spirit.
Yes, my heart aches and I desperately want Jeremy
home, yes I am still grieving for my son non-stop, but Jeremy has taught me not
to stay in Midnight, and now he encourages me not to GO to Midnight and I am
learning to take control of my thoughts and mind; spend my time connecting to
God and therefore I can find my connection with my son as well.
Forgiveness, acceptance and then the love of the spirit
comes to you easily and naturally and it is purifying spirit, soul and body.
In the love of Spirit and deep understanding;
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