Tomorrow is my son’s
birthday; what a wonderful day it was twenty-seven years ago. Although, we waited for Jeremy; he was so
worth the wait and he has been the “Sonshine” of my heart. I use to sing “You are my Sonshine” to him;
it’s a special word between us.
Today I am putting on
my armor of thanksgiving, gratitude, love and having a grateful heart for all
that remains in my life. Ephesians
states “One Lord, one God, one Father who is over all and through all and in all.” I hold onto the connection we have in the
Universal Mind of God and the Universal Love of God. Matthew 5:4 “Blessed are those who mourn, for
they shall be comforted.”
I am happy to be
comforted in the spirit by the Spirit and I will let peace permeate my
being. Although this is not a joyous time
and to be joyful is most difficult; we can find peace and that cause a huge
transformation in our spirit, in our soul and body. I will say that my joy is stimulated by the
twenty-six years I did have with my son and my peace and comfort comes only
from the Spirit.
If we stay determined
and steadfast to be strong in body and spirit then I believe with all my heart
this transformation will bring the “peace that surpasses all
understanding”.
In keeping with good
thoughts and words next to our hearts and planting as many good deeds as we
can; staying steadfast with faith in our spirit; I believe we can raise our
vibrational level and have open portals to God who will comfort us and bring us
a measurement of peace. I pray for a
huge bundle of peace and comfort; not only for me, but for all of you who are
mourning.
If we will imbue the
peace and comfort with intense feeling of thankfulness then I believe that
peace and comfort can be infused into our soul level and ultimately we will
find acceptance that can only come from the peace and comfort that the
Universal Mind of God can offer us.
If we stay in the
now, in this precise moment it will help us not to dwell on what the future
will or will not hold for us with our children gone. In this very moment holds the very precious
essence of peace and comfort. I do my
level best to stay there every day; in the now.
I try to focus on the word transition instead of all the other
“descriptive” words that hold such sorrow.
I hold onto all the good memories that I have with my son and even
though that is part of the past; it shall be what I hold onto in the Now. It is what we have left and to me it is
important that I hold those very special and wonderful memories in my heart
where I have a very special treasure chest just for Jeremy; not dwelling on the
loss, but dwelling on how precious he is and what a better person I am because of
him.
After Jeremy’s
transition the family was contacted by a medium who stated that we will know
Jeremy’s presence because when hummingbirds would visit that would mean so was
Jeremy. It just so happens, that the
hummingbird is my most favorite bird of them all. Although I had had a few hummingbirds
throughout the years a few months after this message I had more hummingbirds
then I have ever had in the six years I have lived here. The hummingbird is even more special to me now.
I feel my thoughts
and feelings are all over the chart today, but the one thing I promised myself
when I decided to journal my journey and Jeremy’s visits was to write exactly
what was going on and not vary or change it in any way. I will do a spellcheck, but after that I am
not to worry about editing.
I am from my heart
reaching out to others in hopes that one word, one sentence, one thought will
inspire and impel you to reach for the life preserver that is being thrown to
you spiritually.
I hope and pray that
I have imparted, motivated or influenced a spiritual journey and that it does
infuse a measure of comfort and peace for you.
Please be in prayer
with me tomorrow and help me celebrate Jeremy’s very wonderful twenty-six years
that I was blessed to have him as my son.
I loved being his Mom; I loved that he was my son….. I enjoyed him
thoroughly even when we did bump heads.
Which he said was a lot, I say it was a little. J In his letter to the family he noted that we
“bumped heads” because we are so much alike.
I couldn’t have been
left with a more beautiful complement from him – I adore him and tomorrow I
will set out to be in celebration of what he has imparted to all those who knew
him and his beautiful spirit and how he taught us all how to really live life.
In deepest
understanding and love,
Sandra xx
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